When I wake up in the mornin’ love,
And the sunlight hurts my eyes,
Then somethin’ with out warnin’ love,
Bears heavy on my mind

can't even remember the last time I had updated this journal of mine.... Oh well it does not matter. So many new things have happened, so many things are being expected. So little time. Had just finished deploying the new site that I have made for our class, and sooner or later I'll be expecting different kinds of views and comments, fortunately all I got are expressions of appreciation.

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I have been infront of this flickering screen for over 3 hours, thinking about anything that comes out of my mind, just trying to find something that would catch my attention. With the rockin', eardrum bashin', sounds of Matchbox Twenty playing over and over for almost 3 hours, seems to me that the songs have been reduced to something that a normal hearing can't understand.

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Sunshine... the title is sunshine.. why why why... because of twista's rap song? or just because?? Anyway, I hate it when the meteor garden starts playing again, hate it when all the televisions here in the house are tuned in into those chinovelas... One very big question that I always ask to the people here in our home. AREN'T YA'LL FED UP?? I mean, that show has been here since back then, and I'm sick and tired of seeing it playing over again just for the sake of getting those "kilig" moments that you want to see... oh come on! How pathetic!! I told them all "why don't ya'll just tune that to WWE!!" and I get that kind of look of theirs, and I could even feel like its slapping my face over and over again.. I continued "Oh yeah! we know that WWE is fake but that is why it is called WWE = WORLD WRESTLING ENTERTAINMENT! you heard? EN-TER-TAIN-MENT!!" It does not have to be real to be called entertainment. Matter of fact it can't be aired on tv if it is real for crying out loud!!".. and I continued to brag "If it's fake then lemme' try it on you, then that would be the time that I would accept the fact that it is realy a fake one..." I remember once, my grandma asked me what I wanna be when I grow up, and I was 4 years old back then, and I told her.. "I WANNA BE A WRESTLER!! LIKE HOGAN, UNDERTAKER, ULTIMATE WARRIOR..." but I did not know the reason why, I just wanted it to be... after a few more years, I was surprised that I was watching wrestling and my grandma unexpectedly joined me!! I was totally damned! Totally surprised!! she was even cheering, and I was like... Whoa!! There is something wrong here, and I found out that she just got the hang of seeing me watching wrestling from time to time, and then for about a second she asked me... "WHY DO PEOPLE YOUNG AND OLD ALIKE, LOVES TO WATCH WRESTLING GIVEN THAT IT IS SCRIPTED AND ALL THAT..." and I just answered frankly and clearly "WANNA KNOW WHY? IT'S BEACUSE PEOPLE LIKE TO SEE GOOD VERSUS EVIL, AND CAN LIVE VICARIOUSLY THROUGH THEIR FAVORITE WRESTLERS BROUGHT UP ABOUT BEING ABLE TO HIT HIS BOSS AND STILL GET PAID..." A sound of silence...

So Nothing Earth Shattering...

I bought a new movie because its been a while since I have watched one. I bought the movie "MY LITTLE BRIDE".

And to what I can say, it is a good movie. The theme was a bit light but almost everyone can get along with this movie as it flows. The story was about a guy and a 16 year old girl getting married for the sake of the girl's grandfather's dying wish. They made it come through then. And the love story of the two starts. And this time I really got my money's worth, since it is a newly released movie.

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Earlier this day after the humanities subject, I had time yet again with this professor. I followed him to his second class, and seated in. By the way there were 3 of us. We had an up close and personal time with him. And I was never wrong that he was my favorite professor. Whenever he starts a story, its always very significant, you'll never want to get out of the room and quit listening to him, this time he told us a little about his life and why he only had 10 students at the room that we entered. Also everything that he says is always an eye opener to me. Plus we noticed that he has this korean student, so we told our professor to call his attention. why? we want to kow him and the main reason was to make him translate our names into korean. It was fun talking with him. And my professor just batted in and asked "what about the translation for fu** You..." and the student just go with the flow... and told us about its translation and my prof added "what about the fu**ing?"... As I have said, my professor talks with significance so the reason why he asked those was to find out why some of the words translated have that cirle characters and some have not. And we found out that words with the -ing sound have the cirlce characters when translated....

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Also I was also able to watch a movie about what a fastfood chain can do to your body. This movie was documentary and it is the movie SUPERSIZE ME.

This movie was really an eye-opener. Good thing I seldom eat at fastfood chains, maybe 1 or twice every 3-4 months. The main reason for me was not because I was food conscious but I want to save money. It is very hard budgeting my allowance... Anyway, this movie was a good movie for fastfood addicts. This will make them think twice on eating on a fastfood chain again...

It was the 27th day, and its a lovely day. Why? I will stress them all on by one. Early in the P.E. Class, we were enjoying the game, suddenly the class president announced "Walang PHCare Bukas!!!! Nagtxt si sir!" And all of us just started screaming in the middle of the open court. It felt like a thorn in my throat has been removed... Finally, all of us will finish the week without seeing the terror professor! Then, as what I have told myself, I will never donate any blood to the blood donation program, but this is me, the kind of person who has a habit of making last minute decisions. And it was about 3:00 pm, one hour to go and the blood letting program will end... I changed my mind, I decided to donate blood, since it has something in return for me. The deal was any nursing student that will donate blood will not take the Grand Scenario anymore, and it is a fair deal, so I really did change my mind because of that. At first I thought it will be painful, but I was wrong, it just looked painful, but I didn't felt a thing at all. And third why it was a lovely day... It was my mom's Birthday! Happy birthday Mom!!!!

This one is for you...

 

You are appreciated

When I was young me and my mama had beef
17 years old kicked out on the streets
Though back at the time I never thought I'd see her face
Ain't a woman alive that could take my mamas place
Suspended from school, scared to go home
I was a fool with the big boys, breaking all the rules
Shed tears with my baby sister
Over the years we was poorer than the other little kids
And even though we had different daddies
The same drama, when things went wrong we blamed mama
I reminisce on the stress I caused, it was hell
Huggin' on my mama from a jail cell
And who'd think in elementary, hey I'd see the penitentiary
One day, running from the police that’s right
Mama catch me, put a whoopin' to my backside
And even as a crack fiend mama
You always was a black queen mama
I finally understand for a woman it ain't easy trying to raise a man
You always was committed, poor single mother on welfare
Tell me how you did it, there's no way I can pay you back
But the plan is to show you that I understand
You are appreciated

(Chorus)
Lady, don't ya know we love ya
Sweet lady, place no one above ya
Sweet lady, don't ya know we love ya

Now ain't nobody tell us it was fair
No love for my daddy 'cos the coward wasn’t there
He passed away and I didn't cry
'Cos my anger wouldn't let me feel for a stranger
They say I'm wrong and I'm heartless
But all along I was looking for a father, he was gone
I hung around with the thugs and even though they sold drugs
They showed a young brother love
I moved out and started really hangin'
I needed money of my own so I started slangin'
I ain't guilty, 'cos even though I sell rocks
It feels good putting money in your mailbox
I love paying rent when the rent's due
I hope you got the diamond necklace that I sent to you
'Cos when I was low you was there for me
You never left me alone 'cos you cared for me
And I can see you coming home after work, late
You're in the kitchen tryin' to fix us a hot plate
Just working with the scraps you was given
And mama made miracles every Thanksgiving
But now the road got rough, you're alone
Tryin' to raise two bad kids on your own
And there's no way I can pay you back
But my plan is to show you that I understand
You are appreciated

(Chorus)

Pour out some liquor and I reminisce
'Cos through the drama, I can always depend on my mama
And when it seems that I'm hopeless
You say the words that can get me back in focus
When I was sick as a little kid
To keep me happy, there’s no limit to the things you did
And all my childhood memories
Are full of all the sweet things you did for me
And even though I act crazy
I got to thank the Lord the you made me
There are no words that can express how I feel
You never kept a secret, always stayed real
And I appreciate how you raised me
And all the extra love that you gave me
I wish I could take the pain away
If you can make it through the night, there's a brighter day
Everything will be alright if you hold on
It's a struggle, everyday gotta roll on
And there's no way I can pay you back
But my plan is to show you that I understand
You are appreciated

(Chorus)

Sweet lady, lady, lady, lady

There was this blood donation program in our school today, I was supposed to donate blood, I was very pushy way before I saw everything. As soon as I got to the venue, I backed out. I saw the agony in the faces of the persons donating their precious blood. Yeah I know, I am a nursing student, it is very ironic for me to be afraid of those syringes and blood. But in fact, I am not afraid, its just that I don't want to be the one being pricked and everything, but I want to be the one who pricks and everything.

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I am very glad to see my biggest crush again... I know, I have got to make a move, sooner or later, I don't want to let this opportunity slip off my hands again...

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I was checking my daily visits statistics and the average visit hits that I get from a day is about 25-30, I was surprised today that I got a whopping 128 hits. The biggest so far this month, that beat the current highest hits that I got which is 53...

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I was late this day in class, why? my sister called before I left home and told me to buy some flowers that she will use for the offering in their mass today. So it kinda wasted my time going to school, that's why I am late. We had another set of showdowns in our class late this afternoon, its some kind of appreciation for our terror professor, and I can tell that he loved it.. haha! Our batch is great!
Gotta go now, I'll have to get up early for tommorow's out-of-town class again!

I feel uneasy this morning up until now. After the morning basketball game. Maybe its just because my body just got so tired all of a sudden. I think sooner or later my shoe is really going to give in, no doubt. Monday and Thursday are the days that my shoes are taking a beating.

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We were playing the "uno" like card game, and I did not have that beginner's luck for real. Also I am a bit flattered a while ago when two of my classmates are quarreling because of me. Because both of them wants my precious attention. Haha, anyways, We just got informed about the Outing, and everything is already planned, we are just waiting for the announcement on when it will be scheduled. Weeeee, I am so excited!!

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By the way, about 11:00 am this day, I rented a pc on a shop near our university, and I have met the cute cashier on that shop. She really looks familiar to me even though I have just seen her for just a couple of times. She looks kinda, well, a bit cute. Don't know why.
And speaking of cute, as what I always do, I checked Joey Cheng's entry on diaryland again, and this time she posted a very cute picture of her with her classmate I guess.

She is the one with a black hair, and asian look... Very Cute. =)

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This song has been playing on my mind over and over again for the past 3-4 days, this is a song by Kitchie Nadal entitled 'Wag na wag mong sasabihin. A song themed for the Lover's In Paris TV Series.

May gusto ka bang sabihin
Bat di mapakali
'Ni hindi makatingin
Sana'y 'wag mo na 'tong palipasin
At subukan lutasin sa mga sinabi mo na...

ibang nararapat sa akin
Na tunay kong mamahalin

(CHORUS)
Oh...
Wag na wag mong sasabihin
Na di mo nadama itong
pag-ibig kong handang
ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo

ano man ang inaakala
na akoy isang bituin
na walang sasambahin
di ko man ito ipakita
abot langit ang daing
sa mga isinabi mo na...

ibang narapat sa akin
na tunay kong mamahalin

(CHORUS)
(REFRAIN)
at sa gabi, sinong duduyan sa yo
at sa umaga ang hangin na ang  hahaplos sa yo oh....

(CHORUS 2X)

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Hey hey hey, it's been barely a month since I have written my movie reviews but still it hasn't been published, Oh well... I am expecting for the worst. I think it'll never be published, I'll just have to get myself another site that'll really publish my works...